“He hath made everything beautiful in his time..” Ecclesiastes 3:11a
I was rearranging some things around my house and noticed a picture that has been in my home for YEARS. My grandmother bought it for me a long time ago.
A favorite Norman Rockwell piece. I’d look at her and think, “Girl, I know how you feel…beat up”! But last night all I could see was her smile. It only took a shift in my focus to see, in a different light, what had been there all along. Yes, she had a little battle wound, but that smile gives me a sense that she’s not defeated. She has another “round” in her.
I’ve been asked, why share? Why now? My answer is simple. I’ve lived in fear MOST of my life. As a child, I feared the execution of threats given by an abuser. As a teenager, I feared death. As an adult, I feared divorce and an abuser again. And can I just say, I am flat out tired of being afraid. My focus has been on Satan’s lies and “what if’s” and not on living in His freedom. Can I just say, my focus has been wrong! Instead of focusing straight on God and believing Him and His promises, I looked at every fear, lie, insecurity and BELIEVED it! Too many years of sin and doubt. Too much bitterness. Too much defeat. “For God hath not given us a spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a SOUND mind.” 2 Tim. 1:7.
No more living in fear. Time to live in true freedom. Right now is the time to focus on Him and His calling on my life. He deserves it all. And if He asks me to do something, I’ve decided to take a different approach and simply obey. It is not without some tears, but so far His way is much better. Im not perfect, bless, I’m not even close. A lot of days I still fail, but I’m learning that when God looks at me, He isn’t staring at my mistakes, bruises and past sin, He sees the blood of His Son that’s covered it all. He sees a beautiful daughter. He sees me. And He loves every part. And friend if this is true for me, it’s true for you as well.
I am not worthy. You are. Thank you for seeing me. Lord, fix my eyes on You. Help me to draw nigh. Increase my faith. You alone. In His will and Your name, Amen.